Girlzone - Rebecca York

My name is Becky York,

I have had a hard life, living a lie from when I was 7, putting on a mask every day just to fit in with how everyone expected me to be and I wore it well. So well in fact I thought I was the mask, the real me hidden in a box, burried so far down I had forgotten it was even there.

Until one weekend, in university the box came to the surface in a dream, and once I realised what was in that box (the real me) I could not deal with it, slammed the box shut and burried it deeper.

Then I fell into depression, self loathing and suicidal thoughts, and carried on wearing the mask. My relationships fell apart, and I tried my best to forget that little box and my life got worse and worse.

I'd been put on anti-depressants and other drugs, and these only seamed to make it worse, until the point when I woke up at work fully clothed at lunch time with a note on my desk from "Claire" saying that someone needed to talk to me - and it was in my hand writing.

One day, someone on the internet saw my suffering. She talked to me a little bit and introduced me to some people who yanked me out of my depression so fast my friends thought that I'd been brainwashed. All this just from realising I was wearking a mask and being allowed to take it off? That's all it took.

The people were Richard and Liz, who run a course called Broadband Consciousness. We're all superheros pretending to be ordinary people. We're all capable of being and feeling AMAZING. No matter what has happened in a person's life, they can benefit as well.

I have started a life coaching service, Institute for Conscious Living, for people with similar life experiances, I know and understand depression, loss of a loved one and the problems, grief & pain that goes with them. I have started a Blog which has my experiences and how I dealt with them.

Now my life is great, I have found an unconditional love for not only myself but everyone and everything around me. My life has changed so much since March 2009, and it's getting better by the day. I have found the best friends, who are caring, loving and accepting.